Realization...
I had had a long conversation with my sister last night.. a long, LONG conversation it was - though it could have lasted only maybe 20 minutes.
I say that it was a long conversation because of the depth of the meaning in it.
She reminded me that I was 42 years old, and that I did not need anyone's approval or consent for me to do anything I wished in or for my life, in shaa Allah... " you are not of that age anymore, and that age has passed you by. Those whom DO have issues, and things to say, did THEY look for ways to make your life more comfortable for you? Or did they worry about the state of your affairs? " she asked.
My sister is almost 5 years younger than I, and yet so much more wiser. I guess it is because she'd been married a whole lot longer than I had ever been. And Marriage inevitably serves to make one wiser, one way or the other.
Sigh..
So where do I go from here, I wonder?
It was true what she had told me, all of it.
No one ever cared what happened or happens to me... Well, I am sure my brothers cared and my mom too.. but they did nothing about it.
No one else ever cared or worried about me, and yet they took immense joy in talking about me, gossipping with glee amongst themselves... all the things that had happened to me, or were happening to me.. it was then that I had realized... "people" will talk and they will ALWAYS talk, until they get another Raihana to talk about.. simple as that...
She told me this, my sister: " look at you now.. you look happy. You want to STAY happy? KEEP THINGS THEY WAY THEY ARE!! "
I wanted to laugh. I asked her : " God created the instituition of Marriage for a REASON. "
She replied something, I can't remember what she said though... and she added some more..
Next day :
Oh I asked her what she said again and she said: Oh, I said that maybe marriage is not really on your cards right NOW - but if you found someone, and stayed with them, enjoying their company for a while, not saying one month or one year or a few years, and eventually decided to get married, THEN you get married.
Then she went on to say about this lady in her store who was 60 years old and had recently lost a breast to cancer.. she told me that this 60 year old woman had had a boyfriend in Laguna Hills and she went to stay with him over the weekend.
wow.
really??
Much Love
R
I say that it was a long conversation because of the depth of the meaning in it.
She reminded me that I was 42 years old, and that I did not need anyone's approval or consent for me to do anything I wished in or for my life, in shaa Allah... " you are not of that age anymore, and that age has passed you by. Those whom DO have issues, and things to say, did THEY look for ways to make your life more comfortable for you? Or did they worry about the state of your affairs? " she asked.
My sister is almost 5 years younger than I, and yet so much more wiser. I guess it is because she'd been married a whole lot longer than I had ever been. And Marriage inevitably serves to make one wiser, one way or the other.
Sigh..
So where do I go from here, I wonder?
It was true what she had told me, all of it.
No one ever cared what happened or happens to me... Well, I am sure my brothers cared and my mom too.. but they did nothing about it.
No one else ever cared or worried about me, and yet they took immense joy in talking about me, gossipping with glee amongst themselves... all the things that had happened to me, or were happening to me.. it was then that I had realized... "people" will talk and they will ALWAYS talk, until they get another Raihana to talk about.. simple as that...
She told me this, my sister: " look at you now.. you look happy. You want to STAY happy? KEEP THINGS THEY WAY THEY ARE!! "
I wanted to laugh. I asked her : " God created the instituition of Marriage for a REASON. "
She replied something, I can't remember what she said though... and she added some more..
Next day :
Oh I asked her what she said again and she said: Oh, I said that maybe marriage is not really on your cards right NOW - but if you found someone, and stayed with them, enjoying their company for a while, not saying one month or one year or a few years, and eventually decided to get married, THEN you get married.
Then she went on to say about this lady in her store who was 60 years old and had recently lost a breast to cancer.. she told me that this 60 year old woman had had a boyfriend in Laguna Hills and she went to stay with him over the weekend.
wow.
really??
Much Love
R
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